spent all day in the woods, taking pretty pictures whilst the men-folk gut the deer.  it was a bad idea to go, no matter how many pretty (and disgusting) pictures i got from it.  my fever came back, and i came home exhausted; didn't even get to eat any "ohmygod, my cousin is 4" cake.  that's bullshit.  because my aunt made him a cars cake with that red car and tow-mater; very awesome cake making skills indeed.

i'm having anxiety issues out the ass for no apparent reason, and am getting shaky and confused.  maybe it's just the illness bothering me.  maybe i'll watch tv.  i don't have the brain for computer right now, anyway.

also.  the cat was put down, and nobody thought to tell him.  it's kind of upsetting.

I've kind of been gone the last week or so. A lot of it due to the fact that my computer had a virus, and after killing it, we decided we might as well reformat. I like clean copies of Windows; it gives me a chance to redecorate my computer, and reorganize and be an overall neat freak. It also gives me a chance to reinstall photoshop & sims 3 and all my fun games to a hopefully better working condition now that our version of Windows isn't slightly corrupted.

Lots of stress in the family. My grandmother was let off Monday, so now she's jobless which is, well, very bad. She's been angry, and depressed, and it just hasn't been fun; she's also been hitting the bottle again, admittedly not beer or wine, but bailey's. I don't think she's been taking her medication, either.

I hope you all have been having a good week, and if you haven't then here's to this one being a little better than last. ♥ Also. It's cold outside. Yay. C:

All right.

1. I have a virus on the computer. It redirects my pages when I google, or when I do anything. It makes me :C.

2. There are way too many awesome video games coming out in the next six months and I feel like I'm going to die from anxiety. There's just too much awesome, and I might overload.

3. I need to learn to check my e-mail. Since I quit RPing, I just... don't check it. I don't even really get on my computer account. It also makes me :C.

4. I wonder if there's an asscreed RP game somewhere. That'd be cool.

ALSO. HEY. HEY, GUYS. ♥ you!

Fresh cut grass smells like watermelon.

Just thought you all should know that.

I WANT TO RP!

but i have no attention span for it.  /sobs

Today is my only real day to derp around on the computer.  And I don't even have very long to do said derping.   Life is just beating me hard.  I've got so much to do now, and not enough time to do it.  I don't have time to even plurk.

I need to learn how to manage my time a little better, and deal with stress without snapping under pressure.

ANYWAY.  I'm sorry, f-list, that I'm not all over your entries.  This is the first time I've checked my LJ this week.  Crazy, amirite?  I hope everything is going well for all of you!  KEEP YOUR CHINS UP.

also, netflix is awesome.  it's got twin peaks now.  aaaaaaaaa.

( viiddeoo gammmeeee mmeeemeee )

All right.  I should talk about my weekend because it was kind of awesome.  My best friend ended up canceling her party on Saturday, so instead I went out with my dad and aunt to Necropolis.  We had gone last year, and it was so much fun and scary.  This year, however?  Not so much, at least not scary.  I don't know if it was the women in front of us who were the typical stereotype of black women, and screamed and yelped and had me rolling on the ground laughing (it was hilarious), or if it was the lack of workers, but it just wasn't... scary.  At all.  But it sure was a confidence booster.

Why?  Because I was hit on.  A lot.  Called pretty, and cute.  The workers complimented my heels and all that jazz.  God, I love myself sometimes (shuddup, it's good to have some self-confidence).  Also, I had done my hair in a cute butterfly braid.  So adorable.

After the haunted house, we headed to Denny's.  Mind you, we got out of the haunted house at 12:14.  We didn't get out of Denny's until around 2 am, and it was packed.  And that was my Saturday of awesome.

Halloween was your typical halloween.  Went to my grandparents, took my dog with me, had a cookout with hotdogs, burgers, brauts, ribs, etc. etc.  I made a new burger that was topped with carmalized onions, blue cheese, various greens, and spicy mayo; it was amazingly delicious, and I urge you all to try it.  My aunt took the kids out trick or treating while the rest of the adults watched horror movies (first on the list was Night of the Living Dead (not the remake, that sucks), which despite how old it was, had my grandmother cringing).  We made candied apples, and carved pumpkins, sorted candy, and got ZERO trick or treaters.  I was happy about that.

RP WISE: I've had a strong urge to play Kadaj somewhere, and while I'm actually working on an application for Luceti for him, I don't know if I'll submit it.  I want to, but I don't know if I want to.  You know?

One app down, two more to go.

Also. I've been playing around with those celebrity look-a-like things, uploading photos and seeing who I look like. All of my top results have been asian women; Zhang Ziyi, and Mika Nakashima, mostly. It's kind of absurd, really, because I have sharp features. :| Stupid face recognition software.

It seems that he's been talking about me, and wanting my number

I think my brain has turned to mush.  I can't concentrate, and sometimes I'll focus in on some words in a tag and suddenly not understand what the other person was trying to say.  Maybe I shouldn't RP today.

This is what I get for not sleeping the day before.

But it was worth it.  We decided to dress up as Lady Gaga and sing her stupid songs while he played Resident Evil 5.  Did anyone know that you could change the camera angles in Lost in Nightmares?  Let me tell you, it's a bitch trying to kill those big things (or run away from them) when you have a fixed camera.  And I still can't beat it on Professional.  I suck.

My best friend is coming over today.  We don't hang out as much as we used to, mostly because of school, work, differences in social groups, but even when we spend months and months apart, the moment we start talking, things just click.  It's like we haven't spent any time apart at all, and it never ceases to amaze me.  But I'm definitely looking forward to tonight, and with most of the family spending their time on the boat, we'll have the house to ourselves which means party.

Also.  Also.  I hate it when my next door neighbors have a garage sale.  It brings lots of people, and my dog finds it necessary to bark at all those people.  all day long.  She just doesn't shut up.  It's really, really annoying.  Is there anyway to make her stop?  I don't want to get a shocky collar because... I just don't like the idea of them.

Napping is evil.

I am in desperate need of a vacation.  Preferably to some far away place, all by my lonesome with cool blue waters and white sands.  I don't want anyone else there, I want to be by myself.  Alone.  For a couple of days at least.  Somewhere I can daydream for hours and hours on end without a single worry.  Where I don't have to worry about money, or school, or children, or my family.

...Too bad I don't have the money or time for a vacation.  Oh woe.

Anywho. I finally beat Alan Wake, it took me awhile due to my limited amount of time to play it, but I've got to say I enjoyed it.  It wasn't nearly as stressful as most video games in that genre, which I am thankful for.  I don't think I could handle another game where I die every twenty steps I take.  Which is what's happening to me in Modern Warfare 2.  I swear, I'll never beat that game.  Stupid first person shooter with awesome controls.  Why do I suck at you so?

Also.  Also.  A possible growing Shadow Hearts cast at witchesreign .  I'm so excited.  No lie.  There's an Albert Simon in the app queue, and that's just...  I mean, I never thought I'd ever see an Albert Simon.  I'd love to see someone app Koudelka, or something.  Or Halley.  Or Margarete.  Or Zhuzhen.  Actually, I'd love to see more characters from the first game make an appearance in the reserves.

I don't think I have any faith left in humanity.  It's just... Fuck.  I just hate this world right now.

FATAL FRAME IV!  FATAL FRAME IV!  FAATTAAALL FRRAAAMMMEEE IV!

I can't stop playing it.  I just wasted most of my day playing it.  I started over to just get all the Hozuki Dolls, and AAAAHHH ghosts are so awesome.  And horror games are so awesome.  And I can't STOP PLAYING!  OH gosh, and the story line is so sad, and I want to play Misaki somewhere.  Or Sakuya.  OR YOU!  BUT MIISSSAAAKKKIIII, AAAAHHH!

This game.  is seriously.  sad, though.  I mean, I just get all wibbly thinking about it.  OH BABY, DON'T MAKE BABIES WITH YOUR SISTER!  THAT IS WRONG!  EVEN IF SHE IS SUPER PRETTY AND YOU'RE SUPER PRETTY!  YOUR BABY IS SCARY AND LIKES TO HURT PEOPLE!

On other parts of my day, my aunt conned me into watching her two children, Warren and Alexis.  Warren is just the sweetest little baby in the entire world.  He calls me Nana, and it's just, eeeeeeee BABIES.  I remember when he used to wail and cry when I left their house.  I miss those days.  Alexis, however, is just the meanest and most manipulative little brat you'll ever meet.  She can and will cry at the drop of a hat if it'll get her what she wants, but she don't pull that shit with me.

I am not above putting that girl in time out.

AAAAH. ANYWAY.  FATAL FRAME!  GO PLAY IT!  ALL OF YOU!  CHERISH THE CAMERA/FLASHLIGHT KILLING WAYS!

Drank too much last night.  Threw up a lot.  My head hurts.  I cannot hold my alcohol.

I bought a fuckton of smelly good cleaning supplies, and been feeling the whole 'spring cleaning' thing.  It's like a disease.  I don't want to RP.  I don't want to check shit.  I just want to clean.  And cook.  And do womanly-things around the house.  And get my hair done, and nails done, and fuck, I need new spring/summer outfits.  And makeup.

I'm in a good fucking mood.

/dances

ALSO.  For Supernatural watching this morning, my dad and I decided to pick up one of those new double down sandwiches from KFC, just cause we figured it'd be something Dean would love, and it was good.  So meaty and delicious.  I could only eat half of one, though, cause, you know, so meaty and fatty.

OH YEAH

I went to the doctor yesterday for fun check-up times, and he told me I needed to gain 10-15lbs. I almost laughed in his face. That's very funny, Doc. Absolutely hilarious. I'm not sickly thin, so I'm not gonna gain weight.

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I'm seriously considering joining witchesreign .  It looks so good, but I've got a terrible track record.  Join a game.  Drop a game.  Join a game.  Drop a game.  I would like to know why Luceti is the only place I've stuck with for so long. Stupid wings.

also.  terrible headache.  this sucks.

RP FUNK

RP FUNK

RP FUNK

Maybe I should take a hiatus in all my current RPs and do other stuff, because you know it's bad when it takes you a good hour to think of a post for a character. I still want to play, sort of, but I can't think of anything. It's like I lost my RP brain somewhere and it's been replaced with the brain that just wants me to veg out on the couch.

It should not be like this. And then this event coming up in Luceti? HAHA. It could be cute, but I'm so RP funked out that I don't think I can think about my character's thoughts. Oh, boo. I hope tomorrow I'm feeling better about it.

With my whole vegged out brain, though, I finally learned how to thread my eyebrows and they look gorgeous. I'm not sure if I prefer it over waxing yet, but that's mostly because of how long it took me.

I can't open this email. I know what it will probably say, but I just can't bring myself to do it.

When did I become such a wuss?