spent all day in the woods, taking pretty pictures whilst the men-folk gut the deer.  it was a bad idea to go, no matter how many pretty (and disgusting) pictures i got from it.  my fever came back, and i came home exhausted; didn't even get to eat any "ohmygod, my cousin is 4" cake.  that's bullshit.  because my aunt made him a cars cake with that red car and tow-mater; very awesome cake making skills indeed.

i'm having anxiety issues out the ass for no apparent reason, and am getting shaky and confused.  maybe it's just the illness bothering me.  maybe i'll watch tv.  i don't have the brain for computer right now, anyway.

also.  the cat was put down, and nobody thought to tell him.  it's kind of upsetting.

We're putting up our Christmas Tree right now, and listening to Christmas music; it's brought a nice feeling.

I love the Christmas feeling.

Not feeling RP at the moment.  Not anyone's fault, obviously.  I'm just in one of those lazy ass moods where the only thing I want to do is veg.  Did that yesterday, too.  I wish there was a way to motivate myself because I notice I don't do well if I just kick myself into doing it--it all comes out half-assed and much much much slower than I usually.  ohgod, i'm so slow compared to others.  /LE SIGH

This weekend we'll be doing a Misa Amane photoshoot.  It's going to have a story to it, so that it isn't just a bunch of *SEXY POSE* *CUTE POSE* *SEXY POSE BY A COLUMN*  *LAZY POSE ON  BED* kind of shit, because I hate that.  I hope it turns out well.  We'll be doing it at my grandparents house because the main bedroom is gorgeous, and elegant, and the attached bathroom has a kind of modern feel to it.  Hopefully, it'll turn out semi-decent.

Also.  It's dark and rainy.  That's probably not helping the lazy I'm feeling--Oh, it was that way yesterday, too!  I've found my cause!  BLAME THE WEATHER FOR LACK OF MOTIVATION.  oh, but the weather is so nice.  it should be this way forever.  or snowy.  all the snow in the world.  with more snow.  and cold.  and christmasy.

I've kind of been gone the last week or so. A lot of it due to the fact that my computer had a virus, and after killing it, we decided we might as well reformat. I like clean copies of Windows; it gives me a chance to redecorate my computer, and reorganize and be an overall neat freak. It also gives me a chance to reinstall photoshop & sims 3 and all my fun games to a hopefully better working condition now that our version of Windows isn't slightly corrupted.

Lots of stress in the family. My grandmother was let off Monday, so now she's jobless which is, well, very bad. She's been angry, and depressed, and it just hasn't been fun; she's also been hitting the bottle again, admittedly not beer or wine, but bailey's. I don't think she's been taking her medication, either.

I hope you all have been having a good week, and if you haven't then here's to this one being a little better than last. ♥ Also. It's cold outside. Yay. C: