you just got to keep moving forward

[lunareism]

I'm seriously considering dropping Luceti.

I love playing my characters there, and I love playing with the people there, but I'm starting to realize that the game isn't what I loved anymore.  It isn't even the new AC rule that's bugging me, it's become everything.  I've felt like this for a year, but I keep sticking to it because I seriously love the people I play with.  I love bringing in new characters, developing CR, but now.... it's become a chore.  I keep pushing off Serenity's tags, too, in favor of other things despite the fact that I really do want to keep playing her.

I'm starting to feel bad because I feel like I've become a squatter.  None of my characters get a post more than once a month because, honestly, I don't have the time to devote to it.  I don't tag quickly.  I tend to drop threads in favor for ones that keep my attention.

I don't want to say I've grown out of RP, because I still want to RP, but I don't think I want to RP there anymore.  I don't want anymore 'slice-of-life' games, I want something that can keep my attention.  The games I have applied for, like devils_see, that would keep my attention, I end up dropping so I can keep up with Luceti's fast pace.

I just don't think I can do it anymore.  I keep giving myself months to think about it, taking hiatus after hiatus in hopes that my love for the game will come back, but it won't.  I don't think it ever will.

And this doesn't even make me feel sad.

Comments

[meowzy-chan.livejournal.com]

Well, if you feel that bad about it, maybe you should drop and cut that weight loose, so to speak. Would I miss you? YES. I would miss you terribly. But I'd rather give you up than force you to be in a game that's unable to hold your interest. Ultimately, a game is still a large portion of your everyday life, so you shouldn't waste that time, ya know?

Luceti isn't the game we knew and loved years ago. It's something different now. Do we still love it? idk, that's up to the player. Some do, others don't. If you don't and you're feeling indifferent about it, then it's probably not worth it to keep playing there, regardless of how sweet the people there are.

[saturate.livejournal.com]

You're right. You're entirely right. I'm going to feel terrible dropping, and I am going to miss everyone, but I think it's time. ♥

[meowzy-chan.livejournal.com]

But again, I will miss you sooo much. So terribly. We should tag outside Luceti sometime. In like... Dressing Rooms or wherever. ♥

[saturate.livejournal.com]

♥ Oh, I agree! I'll probably be around dear_mun, no doubt!

[meowzy-chan.livejournal.com]

Ooohhh, nice. ♥

[cryptgirl.livejournal.com]

I kind of saw this coming for a while now, but like Meowzy said, don't let us stop you from dropping if you're just not having fun there anymore.

[saturate.livejournal.com]

It got kind of obvious, didn't it? I got to say, dropping is like this huge weight off my shoulders. It's so fucking nice despite the slight heartache I'm feeling.

[cryptgirl.livejournal.com]

Now where can we RP together next? It seems weird that we haven't RPed off each other since Kadaj dropped the first time, despite enjoying playing with each other.

[saturate.livejournal.com]

dear_mun, of course. Maybe I'll bring out Kadaj sometime. And I really regret not playing with you more, but I had a lot of trouble keeping up with Luceti.

[cryptgirl.livejournal.com]

Come to think of it, I do regret failing when Alice tagged Saleh's entry that one time. I just couldn't think of a suitable tag. =(

[xelijahbabe07x.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure about the group but I will agree with the two ahead of me & reiterate that anything that's forced isn't enjoyable for either party and only creates frustration and a sense of controlled obligation. Whatever you feel, you should do. B/c that's all anyone else ever does. =)

[catchingspirit.livejournal.com]

I'm late all over the place today >_<

I'll admit, I'm sad. You coming back was a lot of why I held on myself. I'll have to sort through things about that. However, I definitely understand, and I definitely want you to be doing things you'll have fun with.

And I'd really like to musebox/locket/dear_mun/anywhere with you still. <3

[saturate.livejournal.com]

I am so, so sorry about dropping like this. I just... can't do Luceti anymore. I brought Serenity back because of you, and it kills me to drop her like this. It's just no longer the game I want to play in, but tell me the other games you play in, and maybe I'll apply to one of them. I still want to play with you. And, and, and D:

And maybe now that I've dropped Luceti, I can finally hit up locket!

[catchingspirit.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I really do understand.

I play at Adstring and Passing. If you do check them out, lemme know and I'll enable you like whoa. And I'll definitely keep an eye on dear_mun as always. I WILL MISS YOU.

And I don't just mean in RP. I hope we'll keep in touch. <3