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you just got to keep moving forward
I'm seriously considering dropping Luceti.
I love playing my characters there, and I love playing with the people there, but I'm starting to realize that the game isn't what I loved anymore. It isn't even the new AC rule that's bugging me, it's become everything. I've felt like this for a year, but I keep sticking to it because I seriously love the people I play with. I love bringing in new characters, developing CR, but now.... it's become a chore. I keep pushing off Serenity's tags, too, in favor of other things despite the fact that I really do want to keep playing her.
I'm starting to feel bad because I feel like I've become a squatter. None of my characters get a post more than once a month because, honestly, I don't have the time to devote to it. I don't tag quickly. I tend to drop threads in favor for ones that keep my attention.
I don't want to say I've grown out of RP, because I still want to RP, but I don't think I want to RP there anymore. I don't want anymore 'slice-of-life' games, I want something that can keep my attention. The games I have applied for, like devils_see, that would keep my attention, I end up dropping so I can keep up with Luceti's fast pace.
I just don't think I can do it anymore. I keep giving myself months to think about it, taking hiatus after hiatus in hopes that my love for the game will come back, but it won't. I don't think it ever will.
And this doesn't even make me feel sad.
I love playing my characters there, and I love playing with the people there, but I'm starting to realize that the game isn't what I loved anymore. It isn't even the new AC rule that's bugging me, it's become everything. I've felt like this for a year, but I keep sticking to it because I seriously love the people I play with. I love bringing in new characters, developing CR, but now.... it's become a chore. I keep pushing off Serenity's tags, too, in favor of other things despite the fact that I really do want to keep playing her.
I'm starting to feel bad because I feel like I've become a squatter. None of my characters get a post more than once a month because, honestly, I don't have the time to devote to it. I don't tag quickly. I tend to drop threads in favor for ones that keep my attention.
I don't want to say I've grown out of RP, because I still want to RP, but I don't think I want to RP there anymore. I don't want anymore 'slice-of-life' games, I want something that can keep my attention. The games I have applied for, like devils_see, that would keep my attention, I end up dropping so I can keep up with Luceti's fast pace.
I just don't think I can do it anymore. I keep giving myself months to think about it, taking hiatus after hiatus in hopes that my love for the game will come back, but it won't. I don't think it ever will.
And this doesn't even make me feel sad.