LUNARE(clipse)
14 September 2010 @ 05:07 pm
Have you guys ever felt like you were protected?  Like something has saved you from death for a reason?  I feel absolutely insane when I think about it, but I feel like I'm protected.

Or maybe I'm just stupidly lucky.  An absurd amount of luck that no one should ever have.

[livejournal.com profile] kyio  got me thinking about curses and things that haunt you.  In my family, at least on my mother's side, there's been a large amount of drownings.  Just last year my uncle drowned to death in a lake, and his best friend hadn't been able to save him.  There have been others, or so my mother says, including a great uncle of mine.  In my own case, I've almost drowned several times, but I was lucky to be saved every single time.

One time, I had swum out past the buoys.  I could hardly touch the ground without going under, as I was swimming about, my feet skimming the ground, I suddenly fell into a hole.  I remember panicking, I remember there was no one nearby, and then someone saved me.  An older man with black hair, and some chin fuzz.  I thanked him profusely as he helped me towards the shore, and then I never saw him again.

There have been so many other times that, when I think about it I feel lightheaded.  I've come so close to drowning, but every time there's someone there.  It's probably just luck, the idea of someone being protected by the supernatural or God seems inane, but still... I like the idea of being a super special snowflake.

...It's kind of stupid.
 
 
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